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Election 2016: My Personal Essay

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Folks, I’m going to try to do something that right now is hard for me, but necessary.

If you’ve followed my blog for awhile, you know I am a left-leaning Independent voter, and that I’ve supported Hillary Clinton’s life and career for years. I believe she’s an honest, hard-working, capable, and extremely intelligent woman who’s been badly misunderstood over the course of her lifetime. I was proud to vote for her in 2008 in the primaries, and again this year in both the primaries and in the general election.

I am deeply saddened that we will not have Hillary Clinton as our next President.

There is much about Donald J. Trump that scares the willies out of me. That he has no experience at all running a government is the main objection; that he can say intemperate, rude, vulgar, sexist, and bigoted things are my main secondary objections. I did not believe he was fit to be President. I also believed the American people would reject him.

They did not.

Instead, they have largely embraced him. Which to me feels utterly alien, because I had thought we’d gotten past much of what Mr. Trump embodied already.

But we obviously haven’t.

At this point, I hope that Donald J. Trump will prove to be a far better person than he’s ever shown, and that he will somehow become a better President than I fear.

I admit that I am scared. I am a low-income, disabled, widowed woman writer, already without much in the way of a safety net. Trump by the words he’s mouthed over the course of the primaries and general election will take what little safety net I have and rend it asunder.

He does not appear to care about people like me, at all. I’ve known that all along. That’s why I opposed him, strongly.

Instead, I believed in Hillary Clinton and her promise of incremental change. Change usually does come by increments; you have to work hard for change, for improvement, for anything at all.

As a writer I know that; I start out with a blank page, and by the end of my efforts, I have something brand-new. But it takes time, thought, effort, more time, thought, and effort; write, rewrite, edit, rewrite, edit, write, edit, etc., until the final product is in and done.

I understood how hard it is to make any positive changes whatsoever. I thought the United States, as a country, understood that as well.

Either they didn’t, or the hatred of Hillary Clinton was a much bigger factor than anyone ever thought.

Anyway, Donald J. Trump is a very wealthy man. He has never stood in my shoes. (Hillary Clinton hasn’t, either, but I at least felt she could empathize.) He does not know how hard it is to get from day to day, what happens when you have only one car and it has a major repair you can’t pay for (thank you to all who backed me in 2014 so I could get my car repaired, BTW; without GoFundMe and some very good friends, I’d have been completely out of luck then). He doesn’t have any idea what it’s like to lose a home to foreclosure, or to lose your whole retirement because of the 2008 stock market crash (as many did), or to have to struggle and scramble and fight, day after day after day, so you can continue to do what you believe you were born to do.

So, my analysis is simple: I’m going to keep doing what I need to do. I’ll create, and write, and hope for the best. I will continue to do my best to spread optimism, light, and help to all I can, because that’s how I’m made.

I realize even a President Hillary Clinton wouldn’t have been able to help me with much of that. But her policies would’ve led to a more optimistic country, by and large; I firmly believe that.

Now, all bets are off.

This is not what I’d hoped for, and I am afraid.

But I will keep going.

My late husband Michael and my late best friend Jeff would not expect any less.


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  1. With the Right in charge in America and here in the UK, life looks pretty scary on both sides of the pond. We can only keep on doing our best and hoping for the best.


    November 9, 2016 at 6:35 am

    • I know.

      In good news, I did finish everything I needed to do with CF. (We’re looking at a mid-December launch, it sounds like, providing my publisher likes it. I don’t want to send it to her until I get some feedback, though.) I finished that up about a half an hour ago (my final read-through).

      I do not feel triumphant, though. I feel bereft.

      How on Earth could we end up with this terrible result?

      Barb Caffrey

      November 9, 2016 at 9:16 am

  2. Reblogged this on HarsH ReaLiTy and commented:
    That is all we can do! Keep going and press forward! Be safe and well! -OM
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    Opinionated Man

    November 11, 2016 at 12:18 pm

  3. I’m leaning left with you. I, too, am worried about our government and our citizens.

    Carolyn Dennis-Willingham

    November 11, 2016 at 3:49 pm

    • It’s very hard to listen to Reince Priebus, isn’t it? Stephen Bannon or Priebus will be the new Chief of Staff…what a mess. 😦

      Barb Caffrey

      November 11, 2016 at 6:06 pm

  4. I am worried too Barb about what will become of our country with this man as president. And like you described so well above I do believe the most lasting change comes in increments. Trump’s administration plans do not look good so far. So much that took decades to develop will be undone in one fell swoop!

    I was devastated that Hillary lost (although I voted for Bernie in the primary) and I too believe she is a woman of the very best intentions for America despite my having seen and been subjected to so much right wing smearing of her. – First I just had the wind knocked out of me, then I actually felt victimized, then I got angry, then I started taking what few actions I could to begin to fight. I have vowed to not let people forget the things he said and did during this election and I will be vigilant and watchful and vocal on what he does once he is sworn in to office. – And I signed the petition that 3.4 million have signed in just 2 days. It may not be able to alter the result of this election, but it could be powerful evidence for the change that is wanted in America to review the electoral college process not amended since 1804. – There is nothing to lose by signing and here is the link for those that want to read and sign:

    Bonnie Follett

    November 13, 2016 at 12:24 am

    • Thanks, Bonnie. I am glad that you enjoyed what I wrote. I still am quite upset, but I’m going to work to effect whatever positive change I can — and certainly I’m going to continue to speak out against Donald Trump whenever it’s needed…and I expect that to be rather often.

      I have signed the petition…I did so several days ago, in fact…but am glad that you posted a link to it. 😀

      I’ve been having Internet connectivity problems. I’m still moving, and have one more day of it…it’s not an easy thing to move, but I guess I’m in the home stretch.

      (Do you think Donald Trump has ever had to move anything? Or did he just hire people to do it and say, “A little over there? No, a little over there.” I can’t imagine him lifting even the lightest boxes or doing laundry after moving previously-clean sheets and pillowcases…I do not understand how anyone could see Donald Trump as standing up for the “little guy” when he was born — as the old saying goes — on third base and thought he hit a triple.)

      Barb Caffrey

      November 16, 2016 at 12:41 am

  5. This a brave and outward looking post. It puts many comments I have read (including professional ones) to shame. It was an honour to read it.
    All the very best to you

    Woebegone but Hopeful

    November 13, 2016 at 10:52 am

    • Thank you so much, Roger. I appreciate your kind words.

      Barb Caffrey

      November 16, 2016 at 12:35 am

      • Yours was a breath of fresh air Barb.
        Keep on keeping on!!

        Woebegone but Hopeful

        November 16, 2016 at 4:34 am

      • Thank you again, Roger. 🙂

        Barb Caffrey

        November 17, 2016 at 11:51 pm

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