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Holiday Blues

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Folks, I know I haven’t been around online (so to speak) in a few weeks. Some of that is because I’ve been busy editing. Some of that is because of the time of year. And some is because of health-related reasons (as per usual for winter).

As I’ve said over the years, holidays are hard for me. I miss my husband, and my best friend Jeff, and my grandma, and my aunt and uncle…along with many other friends and family members who’ve gone before me. It’s also been just over a year since I lost my canine companion, Trouble, and I miss him a lot, too.

I know the holidays aren’t just about getting and giving stuff. You’re supposed to express your appreciation for others. You’re supposed to let other people know that you care. And you’re supposed to feel grateful that you made it through another year.

I suppose I do feel all those things, but 2020 has been one Hell of a year. Between the coronavirus (Covid-19), the U.S. election and its aftermath, the lack of help forthcoming from most of the various governments (city, state, and federal — though to be fair, the city is hamstrung by the state’s lack of response, and the state is hamstrung by the federal lack of response in its turn), and the general feeling of malaise, 2020 is one year I’ll be happy to put in the rear-view mirror.

Sometimes, it’s difficult to get up, get moving, keep trying, and doing whatever I can. But I will continue to do just that, in the hopes that it makes a difference down the line.

I will tell you one resolution I’ve already made, pre-New Year’s Day: Somehow, in 2021, I am going to find a way to write more. (Not just blogs, either.) Doing that should help me feel more positive, motivated, and focused.

And even if it doesn’t, it will remind me that I’m not all about drudgery, hard work, sacrifice, and more of the same. Though there’s nothing wrong with any of those things (well, maybe drudgery), that’s not the sum total of who I am.

Anyway, in case I don’t post again before the New Year, may you and yours have a festive holiday season (whatever you celebrate). Enjoy the good times, and store them up in your heart, even if they need to be held virtually for the time being due to the pandemic.

Written by Barb Caffrey

December 22, 2020 at 7:16 pm

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  1. I admire you making resolutions. None for me so far this year.

    Kayelle Allen

    December 23, 2020 at 7:37 am

    • You did a ton of writing this year, which is to your credit. Asking you to make a resolution to do any more writing would be gilding the lily! 🙂

      Barb Caffrey

      December 23, 2020 at 6:05 pm

  2. You are amazing. What a wonderful resolution. I might try that as well. You have been inspirational through so many of your blogs–one of the few I really look forward to. Your authenticity and brilliance resonates with every word. I am sorry for your many losses. (We put down our 20-21-year-old pup, Razzle Dazzle) and send {{hugs and hopes}} for a better 2021. Blessings to you and see you next year.

    L R Davis

    December 24, 2020 at 7:19 pm

    • Thank you so much for your kind words. I truly appreciate them.

      And I’m sorry you had to say goodbye to Razzle Dazzle. Just by his name, and by how long he lived, he sounds like he was quite an interesting little guy! 🙂 (To me, even a 100-pound dog is “little,” though some dogs, of course, are smaller in stature than others. ;))

      I think overall that creativity helps us to moderate our frustrations. But when you can’t write much due to illness or whatever else (pandemic, anyone?), the lack of creativity can sometimes exacerbate our frustrations, too.

      The important thing is, I am still in there fighting. And if possible, I’ll put up a snippet of something to start off the New Year…maybe from KEISHA’S VOW (the Elfy prequel set in 1954, where both Jelena and Egbert are alive rather than their ghostly selves from Elfy, Jelena’s pregnant with Sarah’s mother Becky, and there’s a love interest for Keisha, too).

      I think that might be an excellent way to start off the year. 🙂

      Barb Caffrey

      December 24, 2020 at 9:52 pm

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